the countdown has officially started!

So I've officially started my countdown until I'm outta Florence. only 167 more days. I'm very ready to be outta here and away from all the drama, and people that are in this town. I've been through a lot of rough spots this year, and apparently things aren't getting any better, but I'm going to get through it. You know I sit here on tonights like this where I have nothing to do, and I'm in a bad mood, and I'm talking to a friend about it and realize just how much I'm ready to get out of here.

I've always dreamed of my senior year being one of the best years of my life, and grant it, it has been a really good year, it just hasn't been as easy as I have always dreamed it to be. It's hard when you start your senior year of high school, and you have no one to talk to. It's almost as if you're starting at a new school and know no one. And yes I'll take full credit for putting myself in that position but when you try to fix things, and it just goes no where after weeks of trying, I just gave up. I knew things would work themselves out, but it took time. The decision about college was stressful and took lots of thinking, planning, praying, and time. Making my decision about college changed when I found out my parents were moving. Just the thought of us moving plus me starting school all at the same time, just stressed me out. I always feared that i would go to my new house and all my stuff would still be in a box where it hadn't been unpacked yet. Not to mention that it wouldn't even be home, because I would know absolutely no one other than my family. Luckily we found out we didn't have to move so that was a heavy weight lifted off my shoulder. Don't get me wrong, I'm loving my senior year, but it hasn't been the easiest of years.

I'm beginning to think this is just a life lesson, that I've had to learn through different people, different things, and different perspectives. I know I've got people here for me to listen to me, to support me, to be my shoulder to cry on, I just wish I would use them and let them help me, and not be so dang stubborn. However lately I have been relying on the Lord more than usual to get me through these times. Maybe I'll just be lucky enough for Him to send me the right person, who will be my encourager until I'm fully satisfied with where I'm at in my life.