i just don't understand..

so this weekend, has been so-so. friday night was pretty rough. i went with a friend to hear what about wednesday at music depot. a really good friend of ours is in the band. well we have been friends since 5th grade. and we've had manyy ups and downs, more downs than we've had ups because of a certain someone in his life, his girlfriend. she acts like he's her slave. he can't talk to any other girl because she will get mad. i don't understand how he lets her just run his life for him. he can't even look at another girl without her yelling at him. i just think that it's retarded and he should be able to do what he wants. all it is, is she is very insecure about their relationship. how you can be in a relationship if you don't trust your boyfriend or girlfriend?! i just don't understand. but it really upsets me because we used to be such good friends, and now he can't even talk to me because of her. his grandparents love me (not trying to be concieted or anything) but they do, but yet they just sit there and watch him ignore me, knowing he wants to talk to me but he can't because of her. how messed up is that? the hardest thing that night was, when they were on the stage playing he kept looking over where i was sitting. he was trying to be nonchalant about it, but because i know him, and how he is, he didn't do a very good job of it. and it just really bothered me that he kept looking over at me, and i couldn't talk to him. maybe it's just me..i'm not really sure, but i think it's pretty immature on their part.

then what really pissed me off, was when i sent him a text message saturday telling him happy birthday, and he responded and said who is this? and i told him who it was, and do you know what he said?! 'please don't text me anymore. just erase my number.' i had to think about what i was going to say, before i responded back. but the more i thought about it, the more mad i got. but this is what i said back to him, 'really? all because i sent you a text message saying happy birthday? you and your girlfriend need to grow the hell up. she's 21 and you're now 18, and you're acting like you're 12 and 8.' and he said, 'whatever. just stop.' and so from now on i have no intentions of every talking to him again.

losing people you care about is very hard, because you often find yourself thinking about them later on in life, and wondering how they are. i guess that's why they always say everywhere you go people come, and they'll go.